Cap 4:

… So I decided to take out my LSD tab and put it in my tongue, so far I have just been smoking weed and even though that was a change in my psyche I thought that might be something similar to it, and I was meditating too, so I could handle everything, what a naive person I was.

After an hour of putting the LSD tab in my tongue, I started to see everything differently, my hands were like Full HD, it felt like when you are watching a youtube video and you know the video quality is close to 240p and suddenly it loads to 4K. I was seeing reality with my own eyes in 4K for the first time ever:

Neo: “My eyes hurt!”

Morfeo: “You have never used it before.”

I was able to see color like never before, my mind was trying to understand what was happening but the experience was so intense I didn’t matter how much have I read about, or listing about it, it was way too much for my innocent, and prepotent Ego. the trip lasts about 7 hours, the whole time I was screaming trying to rip my face off due to the lack of actual reality that was missing my whole life, then I was thinking about weed, that might help, I feel comfortable with weed, that will make me chill; but first I need to put some music on, “wait how do you use a cellphone?”, I called my girlfriend and ask for help, crying like crazy I was asking to “pleaseee put some music that you like”, I don’t even know what kind of music I like, “please just put some music that I like”. I went get a glass jar were I store my weed, I use a grinder as good as I could, trying to not lose control of my hand and mind, “please just let me do this and I will be ok” I was repeating that the whole time; my Soul was trying to get me but my Ego was so strong and well putted that I was really hard to let go and chill, where I was even endup if I do that. 

I had to take a shower, I could not believe I was inside a piece of meat like my body, I was all horrible, my face had a lot of facial hair, I had shit inside me, I had guts, everything that was material was so ugly, my home felt like a empty cage were I had my piece of metal were I had my water and that was it, that was my whole life. Just material shit, with no actual enjoyment or not even close to actual real life experiences.

At the same time I was able to understand that I was having two trips at the same time, the other trip was the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced. Later I understood that I joined the SuperAlma but at that moment I did not know what it was, what to call it, and had to experience so much more before I connected to that again. bear with me while I get there.

My Soul was having the time of its life with ~250ug of LSD, I was expecience multiples planes at the same time, I was able to see myself crying and screaming but I was chill in the inside, I was able to just observe myself in the material world while I was so relax in the inside and above.

Finally I realize I was sitting holding a glass pipe about to smoke some weed but again I got so lost on how beautiful the weed looks in 4K in this reality, it was just amazing, something so simple and that I have had so many times in my hands was the most beautiful thing I have ever seeing, I was just weed, but was the only thing that came from nature, the only real green thing that was in my home at the moment, I was able to appreciate how majestic nature is for the first time in my 24 years of life in this Earth, I have been doing nothing but get lost in the matrix.

I smoke a little and thinking everything will be chill now, it was the first time I felt Mother Earth, “Wow, this is Pachamama” that lasted about 30 secounds, it felt like an hour, after those 30 secounds, craziness took over again, my Ego was not able to let go and my Soul had a passive, almost non existing voice that was telling me to relax, In that moment I detached from my body and let it lose, my body started to go crazy again but I was not there, more more I was further away of my body doing all those crazy things and I enjoy the trip with my Soul not with my body.

My Soul was going to places I cannot explain with words, was infinite love and understanding I was getting so many message about how to manage my life, how to talk, how to see people, it was a lecture on life from life itself and my soul was finally awake after so much searching without knowing I was searching, it was like life itself has been playing a game were I was a pawn but now I got promote and was able to move like a Queen (#noHomo) but only if I could take action on it and I did.

Some months later I was taking a trip to Iquitos and decided to end my relationship of 10 years, not that easy, and to quit my job, way more easy task to do.

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