Cap 5:

There I was with a face that says “fuck off” everywhere, the thing was, the only ones around were actually the people that love me the most, my family, mi pa and mi ma, and they were the ones that I was putting that face on, and teri_luna that was the one I was leaving with, we were going to EU, because we wanted to travel for so long and we haven’t being able to, until we met each other,  It was in the middle of the pandemic and we were going to a country that we didint even know shit!.

We didn’t get past the Airport, 3 or 4 hours later we were back to the apartment but we were chill, the day before she did around 3 grams of mooshrooms and I did 250ug of LSD. At this point I wasn’t able to trip like before, I remember being tripping with such control that I could decide if I wanted to travel to a dimension where I was rich, one were I was poor, one with no scars in my body, I was complete free to travel to whatever I wanted, then I got board of multidimensional planes of my own reality, I could be anyone I wanted, even that gets boring when you can travel at the speed of light and each period of time, that could  vary between 1 second and years and years in each reality, you wonder what is after all those lives, and then it shows you.

Infinite possibilities inside a huge round thing that you can zoom in and get into that life, and zoom out and pick another one, or you could just not pick and stay there, watching, that is part of what I called Maya now, you will see how I get to be named like that.

Anyhow, that was the first try of trying to leave everything behind and get a new life. 
Did not work, but that was because there was another plan that was impossible for me to realize at that point. We delayed our plans a couple of months and because of the Covid, we decided to travel in South America first. 

We went to Peru, I have a fascination for that country since I visited for the first time, those landscapes are the fcking best dude!

And there I try Ayahuasca for the first time. The 2nd time I went to Peru, and after trying convincing my girlfriend at the moment to go with me, she just said it wasn’t her thing. I went alone.

Went first to Lima, there was a another plane to the town of Iquitos, then you have to meet with someone that picks you up in a motoCarro, and takes you to the shore of the river, the Amazonian river, you get into a boat and there you go 2 hours in the river. Then you arrive at one of those centers and in my case, was one of the best.

On the first night you do Aya, she cleans, she puts you in the best mood, she helps you let go and be fun. that is just so you get the confidence and then she fucking hit you with pure love that you have no idea what the fuck just happend.

But she teaches you how the soul speaks, I know it is not necessary to listen to your soul through Aya, but I’m not that smart, I need some help and thankfully I have it from the plants.

I have never feel more alive, more full of energy and love, I love every part of myself and every cell was vibrating so much that was just pure ecstasy, I was crying without even noticing and when I did noticed I was even happier I could not believe how I was not enjoying like that the whole time. That took 3 more nights of Aya to understand why I wasn’t able to enjoy life like that everyday. That part was horrible.

Day by day, little by little Aya was getting me to know myself, how I was living my life but and the same time I was free of being myself in a place where nobody knew me, I could just be relax with people from all around the world, and I was the only Latim peron there, so was even more relaxing for me, there was people from Canada, Poland, USA, Italy, Japan, was incredible for me, was the experience I was looking for, but I wasn’t even close to how that would feel, I thought I might be like LSD, at this point I have travel with LSD around 7 times, a total expert!

With Aya that time, I had such a crazy multidimensional travels that you would not imagine, and Dimitri had even craziers, he was screaming how everything was just a episode of Rick and Morty, and that is literally true, but I realized that after I did LSD for the first time, after these Aya Ceremonies. 

You could just get in and out of parallel realities just like Rick does with his gun, the thing is, I was all the time wondering how is it that Yoguis could do it without Psychedelics. That was bothering me the whole time, I had done a 200h course to be a yoga teacher.

But you don’t need a gun, you need it if you are not able to control your mind, in the other hand if you are able to stop speaking to yourself (Allan Watts link) you will be able to go to those places and way beyond that, you know Love for the first time, multiple times, every time it touches you, you feel loved for the first and last time. Its so beatiful, and Yoga teaches you that, LSD shows you a little, mooshrooms shows you a little, Aya fucking shows you pretty much all there is, at least she decieded to show it to me. And I appreciate that with my Soul. 

I had felt how the whole universe hugs you and tells you how everything is Ok, “you already have everything you need, you just have to breathe and everything will be just fine, as has always been, just relax and come with me”.

“Oh yeahh!!! I can just relaxxx wowowwwww…. 🤤”. And you are There.

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